will be spent undoing everything from today and yesterday.
Basically I hate myself.
Don't know when I'll be back on.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
2/14/11
Sometimes I feel like I could cut real deep, crack open my breast plate, and the real girl could finally come out. I know the real me is in there, packed away under these extra 40lbs.
I'm going to have to up the output. I'm not losing at all. Weighed in the same: 160, again. Its really discouraging, and I don't think I'm going to eat anymore than the banana I had for breakfast today. Mike will kill me, but he just doesn't get it. I mean, I have lost 5lbs in the past two weeks. And its stayed off. I guess that's something to be excited about, but for some reason I am stuck on the negative aspects of everything. Also, I'm going to have to get a new scale. This one is so inaccurate; I always have to adjust it back to zero when I get on. Any recommendations?
I'm going to watch the eating disorder episodes of Intervention, do some laundry and some minor calisthenics. I don't want to have to take another shower today before Mike gets here.
Happy Valentine's Day, everyone. Stay strong and away from the chocolate! =)
I'm going to have to up the output. I'm not losing at all. Weighed in the same: 160, again. Its really discouraging, and I don't think I'm going to eat anymore than the banana I had for breakfast today. Mike will kill me, but he just doesn't get it. I mean, I have lost 5lbs in the past two weeks. And its stayed off. I guess that's something to be excited about, but for some reason I am stuck on the negative aspects of everything. Also, I'm going to have to get a new scale. This one is so inaccurate; I always have to adjust it back to zero when I get on. Any recommendations?
I'm going to watch the eating disorder episodes of Intervention, do some laundry and some minor calisthenics. I don't want to have to take another shower today before Mike gets here.
Happy Valentine's Day, everyone. Stay strong and away from the chocolate! =)
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Wooooow
Intake for the day is chicken noodle soup from scratch and a whole fucking chocolate strawberry.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
My chest is really tight, has been all last night and today. Like I can't even take in a deep breath without it hurting.
Output for today is calisthenics until I pass out.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
My chest is really tight, has been all last night and today. Like I can't even take in a deep breath without it hurting.
Output for today is calisthenics until I pass out.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Thinspo
2/12/11
Liquid fast went really well today, up until about an hour ago. I ate a 2 1/2 ounce banana. I guess that's about 80 calories. Other than that I just had tea, water, and 2 cups of bullion.
Total intake for today was 100 calories. Pretty damn awesome if I do say so myself.
One of my main goals today was to compile a thinspo post. That'll be done later, and ready when you girls wake up.
Tomorrow I'm going to the mall with my mom to shop for Mike's Valentine's Day gift. I'm excited, but also nervous about the food court temptations. My calorie limit tomorrow is 550. Hopefully I'll be way under that.
Also, to determined girl: thank you so much for your supportive comment! Made me feel soooo much better.
Total intake for today was 100 calories. Pretty damn awesome if I do say so myself.
One of my main goals today was to compile a thinspo post. That'll be done later, and ready when you girls wake up.
Tomorrow I'm going to the mall with my mom to shop for Mike's Valentine's Day gift. I'm excited, but also nervous about the food court temptations. My calorie limit tomorrow is 550. Hopefully I'll be way under that.
Also, to determined girl: thank you so much for your supportive comment! Made me feel soooo much better.
Friday, February 11, 2011
2/11/11
Well my plan for today did not happen. My sleeping schedule is still so screwed up, and I ended up going to bed in the morning/waking in the afternoon.
I didn't eat anything today until dinner time, when I had some brown rice, peppers and chicken. It came to about 300 calories. Then I had two cookies from last night, which came to about 250.
Total for today is 550, which isn't totally bad, but not totally where I'd like to be. But I weighed in at 159 this morning, which is a pound down from last time, so I'm still feeling positive.
My good mood just can't be broken today.
I went grocery shopping this evening; this is what I got:
Bananas
Plums
Celery
Grapefruit
Grapes
Salad
Red Bell Peppers
Corn
Brown Rice
Progresso
Chicken Bullion
Special K
Skim Milk
Splenda
I think that's it.
Anyway, my boyfriend goes home tomorrow for a couple days, to arrive back on Monday. Then we're celebrating our anniversary. I'm thinking of ordering steamed veggies and white rice. I know the calorie content will still be high, but its the best I can do when he is insisting on Chinese food, and will notice if I don't eat.
I'm going to try a liquid fast starting midnight tonight, for 24 hours. I have plenty of water, mint tea, cinnamon apple tea, and green tea to help me through. If its not too cold out I may go for a walk, if not its yoga and DDR for me.
Wish me luck!
I didn't eat anything today until dinner time, when I had some brown rice, peppers and chicken. It came to about 300 calories. Then I had two cookies from last night, which came to about 250.
Total for today is 550, which isn't totally bad, but not totally where I'd like to be. But I weighed in at 159 this morning, which is a pound down from last time, so I'm still feeling positive.
My good mood just can't be broken today.
I went grocery shopping this evening; this is what I got:
Bananas
Plums
Celery
Grapefruit
Grapes
Salad
Red Bell Peppers
Corn
Brown Rice
Progresso
Chicken Bullion
Special K
Skim Milk
Splenda
I think that's it.
Anyway, my boyfriend goes home tomorrow for a couple days, to arrive back on Monday. Then we're celebrating our anniversary. I'm thinking of ordering steamed veggies and white rice. I know the calorie content will still be high, but its the best I can do when he is insisting on Chinese food, and will notice if I don't eat.
I'm going to try a liquid fast starting midnight tonight, for 24 hours. I have plenty of water, mint tea, cinnamon apple tea, and green tea to help me through. If its not too cold out I may go for a walk, if not its yoga and DDR for me.
Wish me luck!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Plan for Tomorrow
10 a.m.- Wake up
10: 30- Breakfast of two egg whites and mint tea
10:45- DDR for 200 cal
11:30- Shower/shave/etc
12:15- Grocery Shopping
2:00- read everyone's blogs/mint tea
3:30- pick up Ashton
7:00- Dinner of two cups bullion
8:00- Create thinspo post
9:00- Read
Be in bed no later than midnight
10: 30- Breakfast of two egg whites and mint tea
10:45- DDR for 200 cal
11:30- Shower/shave/etc
12:15- Grocery Shopping
2:00- read everyone's blogs/mint tea
3:30- pick up Ashton
7:00- Dinner of two cups bullion
8:00- Create thinspo post
9:00- Read
Be in bed no later than midnight
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